It never gets easier

Here it is June 12 again, four years since that fateful day at the beach in Kenting, Taiwan. Still missing my Sue-Q. Still remembering her beautiful smile and infectious laughter. Still can't see tulips without thinking of her. Still loving her. Still longing to hear her voice. Still wondering why. Still don't like the ocean. Still trying to forget bad memories of that day. It never gets easier.
--Mom